Riding the nutcase rollercoaster

I have been riding the nutcase rollercoaster for a few weeks. I noticed a few weeks ago that I was starting to feel a little "off", though I couldn't put my finger on it. I thought maybe it was just stress from wedding planning, which isn't all that stressful anymore, or maybe the semester getting to me.

Then something weird happened to me at work. Come to find out, it was a severe panic attack. Last week my mental stability went way downhill. Wednesday night I had a panic attack. On Thursday I cried to my mom for an hour and a half about how I wanted nothing more than to cut my wrists to release all the anxiety and tension I felt inside. I made an appointment with my doctor first thing on Friday so that I didn't end up doing something rash.

As soon as I told my doctor what had been going on, he looked and me and smiled and say, "You need more vitamin L!" (L as in Lexapro-my antidepressant).

He ended up doubling my dose to get me through the semester, and gave me a prescription for a benzodiazepine in case I feel a severe panic attack coming on.

I am glad to say that I am feeling much, much better already. The medication boost was just what my screwed up brain needed

Hello, world. It's nice to see you again.