This summer when I went to see my doctor, I wasn't sure how I would do with an antidepressant. I work very hard to get good grades, and I've made the Dean's List for the last 3 semesters. I was worried that taking an antidepressant would make me apathetic toward my schooling, and my grades would suffer. I am really excited to say that it's been the total opposite, and I've made the Dean's List once again. Sooo, 4 semesters in a row.
This past semester hasn't been easy, and I'm not sure I would have survived it if I wasn't on medication. I have really bad anxiety when it comes to school and my grades; so bad that my body suffers physically from it. But, since being on the medication, I haven't been sick anymore, and I am much less stressed and anxious all the time. I can actually relax more than I used to be able to. I used to study all the time. I would go 2 weeks without seeing my fiance because I was too busy studying and worrying I wouldn't be adequate. I would stay up until 2-3am studying, missing out on much needed sleep, which is so not healthy. I am doing so much better this semester, and I can make my brain justify spending time with my family and fiance and sleeping like I need to. And I can still make the Dean's List doing it.
WooHoo! Congrats on the Dean's List again!
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So glad to hear you're able to function so much better AND care just as much about school. When I started antidepressants, I was worried they'd make me feel blank and uncaring, however, they did quite the opposite. Suddenly, I was able to focus on the things that mattered, and I felt so much more alive. I wish I could have had the courage to seek help back when I was in college. I did very well, but I now know the experience could have been so much better.
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